tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-151218042011-04-21T11:42:40.877-07:00Footsiesnoreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15121804.post-1123998760550609512005-08-13T22:24:00.000-07:002005-08-13T22:52:40.556-07:00I feel ugly all the time.<br />Sometimes I give up on the makeup and everything, because I feel nothing's going to change my genes.<br /><br /><br />I can't stop crying...<br /><br /><br />So many things are going through my mind,<br /><br />I wonder if my rejection has just now hit me.<br /><br />I mentioned to E that it wasn't so much that he didn't feel the same way, <br /><br />so much as he didn't want me.<br /><br />He didn't want me.<br /><br />He didn't want me.<br /><br />It might sound different to most everyone,<br /><br />but that's the only way I could <a href="http://www.seehersquirt.com/?wm_login=jdoughs">see her squirt</a>.<br /><br />What's wrong with me.<br /><br />And don't say what's wrong with him.<br /><br />If he's dumb, then its an insult to me that he didn't want me.<br /><br /><br /><br />I miss being touched so much.<br /><br />Anyway, today I learned I have <a href="http://www.mrchewsasianbeaver.com/?wm_login=jdoughs">Mr Chews Asian Beaver</a>, as well as the Hypochondria I knew I already had. <br /><br />One of the symptoms checklists I had to go through:<br /><br /><br />raging heartbeat yup <br />difficulty breathing, feeling as though you 'can't get enough air' yup <br />terror that is almost paralyzing sometimes <br />dizziness, lightheadedness or nausea yup <br />trembling, sweating, shaking yup <br />choking, chest pains yup <br />hot flashes, or sudden chills yup <br />tingling in fingers or toes ('pins and needles') ohhh yea <br />fear that you're going to go crazy or are about to die yup <br />it occurs suddenly, without any warning and without any way to stop it. yup <br />the level of fear is way out of proportion to the actual situation; often, in fact, it's completely unrelated. definately. <br /> <br /><br />Ya, its really fun, I'm telling you. The good thing is at least I know what's happening with my body now.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/15121804-112399876055060951?l=areiasportugal.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Footsiesnoreply@blogger.com